A fairly insignificant day to you maybe, but quite the contrary in my humble opinion because…
– It’s the 266th day of the year.
– 99 days remain until the end of the year.
– Karl Pilkington was born on this day in 1972.
– In the year 2000 Steve Redgrave won his fifth Olympic gold medal.
– And today, in 2014, it marks the point where I can officially say there is one month to go until I leave for Australia!
HOLY. MOLY. GUACAMOLE!
I genuinely don’t know whether to laugh, cry, or be sick!
Don’t get me wrong, I am SO excited. I don’t think I can even put into words how much I’m looking forward to living on the other side of the world for a whole year – the best I can do is relate it to having restless legs, feeling as if I’m constantly stuck in the back of a car on a very long journey. I just have to move all the time, because knowing where I will be off to in a month IS SO THRILLING! Without even being there and having done next to no planning I already know it’s going to be the best year of my life. The anticipation and excitement of what is to come hits me in huge waves when I least expect it. For example, today I was walking down Goring High Street and I remembered where I’d be off to in a months time, and along came this huge swell of all sorts of feelings from the pit of my stomach all the way to my chest and wanting to burst out of my mouth, leaving a stupidly big grin on my face! It took every ounce of my self control to not hop, skip and jump down the road to let everybody know what I know!
There is, however, a bit of a mini war going on inside me, with all sorts of other emotions fighting to take precedence over the excitement. And the one that seems to be winning is fear.
That sounds silly, sitting here going “I’m so scared about living and working in Australia for a year, where the sun will shine, I’ll learn to surf, I’ll go swimming with fish, I’ll meet lots of incredible people, I’ll do things I never even dreamed of being brave enough to do. And then when it all comes to an end I’ll come home with the most wonderful stories to tell all my loved ones!” But I am scared. I’m so scared!
I’m going from having a steady job and living with my parentals in a very safe house, which is in a very safe village, where I don’t have to cook and I’m lucky to pay very little rent, to living in a huge country all by myself where I know no one and have no job! If I get homesick, or if there’s a problem and I simply need a cuddle there will be no Mothership right around the corner to hug it out and make it better by just being there.
I wouldn’t describe myself as a serious homebug, my family drive me nuts sometimes – but in an endearing way! And considering we’re currently all back under one roof for the time being…well what family with a 23 year old daughter and 21 year old son wouldn’t go a little crazy?! But to go from seeing them every single day to not at all for an entire year will be weird, and a hard change to come to terms with initially I think.
But that’s what I need! Change! I’m comfortable right now. Too comfortable. Bored, in fact! That was why I booked the trip in the first place, to spice things up and to motivate me into doing something more enjoyable with my life! Ultimately I think this panic that threatens to overwhelm me from time to time really stems from the dawning realisation of how soon it is until I go, in addition to the simple fear of how real saying goodbye to friends and family will be when it comes to it. “See you later” doesn’t quite cover a whole year I feel!
But I’m still very much more excited than fearful or panicky that’s for sure!
To mark such a monumental day in my countdown I have spent the day doing all sorts of “life admin”; I have cancelled all direct debits, I’ve changed my phone contract, I’ve booked final doctors and dentist appointments, my final hair cut has been scheduled and I’ve even managed to find a date to have my hair highlighted too! I even got round to booking my birthday/leaving ‘do! If one thing was going to make it feel real, a definite leaving ‘do date was definitely it! This ‘life admin’ is useful, but really making me realise how much I feel I need to do and buy before I go. This is the beginning stages of my packing…
For as long as I can remember The Mothership has always laid out holiday clothes and items in the spare room in the run up to a vacation, so I decided to take a leaf out of her book and have well and truly commandeered the spare bedroom! This pile of stuff doesn’t even include the clothes and shoes I want to bring, of which I already know I have too many! AND I still want to get a new pair of converse to go in, and a watch, plus I still need to get flip flops! And travel hair straighteners…!
I guess you could say I’m a bit of a princess, but I’m sure over the course of the year that’ll change! 😉
One cheeky plug before I finish this MAMMOTH post – so as to not bore my Facebook friends and Twitter followers I have created separate accounts and pages to document all my travel adventures. Therefore if you are keen on keeping up to date with what I’m up to please like The Naive Traveller on Facebook, and be sure to follow me on Twitter too! Just click on the links down the right hand side of this page!
Ta muchly! Here’s to the next 30 days! Eek!